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The Worst Feeling

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jessica0115

Published: Apr 23, 2014

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The saltiness runs down my face
A few kids have noticed
Others ignore it
Others are oblivious
Friends tell me to get over it already
To suck it up
To stop dwelling on it
Because it happened and I can't do anything about it

I don't blame them
For saying those things
Even though their words
Only add to the pain
I keep bottled up
And locked inside
Because when I show it
I am shunned

But I don't blame them
They are young
Teenagers
Like me
They don't know
So how can they understand
They can't.

But I don't blame them
For what they say
Their insensitivity
Their choice to ignore my cries for help
Because I want to remove the mask I wear day after day
With the painted smile
And the "I'm really okay"
It's fake
A lie
I hate it
Because
I'm truely broken inside

I don't blame them
And I don't blame you
If you take their side
See me the way they see me too
Look at my mask
Believe it's real
I won't blame you
It hurts to feel

I don't blame them
For not understanding
They've never expierienced
Losing a piece of their heart
Suddenly
Never to come back

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